In loving memory.

I finally let go of my hands.
She left eventually.

I thought i would be able to take it.
I thought i would be able to face the world with a wide smile.
I thought i would be able to carry on with my life as usual.
I couldn't.

I buried myself in the virtual world of gaming.
I make myself to sleep even i do not feel like.
I deceived myself that everything is fine and great.
I make myself to go out with ppl.
I just want to be occupied and stop thinking.

I pretended that she was still with me.
But the cruel truth still stab me on my back.
When I open my wallet to buy things but i saw our pics, i realised that she's gone.
When I pick up my house phone to call but i realised that she's no longer there to take my call.
When I use my handphone to msg but i realised that she's no longer available to see my msgs.
When I wanted to ask somebody out but i realised that she's no longer by my side.

Whenever
I felt that my eye lids are too weak to support the tears inside.
I felt that my throat is too dry to swollow any saliva.
I felt that my heart is too weak to face reality.
I was never a moment happy ever since breakup.

I felt terrible
I was in pain, prolong pain..... :'(