strucked hard.

Woke up in the morning
Found my strings of the bloster has been loosen.
I tried to tied it back,
I failed to do so.

Flashbacks came to me.
It shows how baby help me to tie.
Baby refuses to teach me how.
We end up pillow fighting.
Sweet memories.

In the present,
Baby no longer help me tie my bloster strings.
It felt as if i have lost my wife,
instead of a girlfriend.

Sadden.
What can i do?
I miss baby alot.
I have not much time left to departure...

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Reminise of Baby,

Baby always puts her bag in the circled area on my table. but now, it's always empty.



We used this machine to laminate our photos and certificate of marriage together. Will it be a chance that we can used it together?



We played this game together in my house. Baby and I completed it together!
Do you still remember?



hubby de results transcript collected by baby in school. Baby also printed a copy for hubby to apply for UNI.



The left over wrappers used for baby's 18th birthday. hubby delivered to her on 12am to her house. baby was so touched. Do you still remember all these?



pokercards that we used to play fishing together when bored at home. Though it was kinda silly, we enjoyed each other's company.



Our couple phone. Samsung Omnia red for baby and black for hubby. even till today.



bought this figurine on the 4th month at animefest. struggled quite sometimes to buy or not until the last min den buy. we took 107 home. remember?



bought together at kovan while walking around with baby. Baby was the one who spotted and hubby haggle the price down to 12 bucks. Remember ma?



Gameboy color for our Dr mario game. We played together. See who can survive longer.
laughters and smiles.

Part 2 will come soon.

Baby and I shared so many things together.
Baby, faster find back all the memories and feelings please.
Hubby really feeling 心如刀割 every moment you are not by him.
:(

GOH PEGGY!

I miss you!

:(

shag-ED

She say she needs time.
I gave her time.
2 months exactly.
Reunion on 27th June 2009,
Kovan Macdonalds, 2pm.

Will she come?
2 months isn't long.
But it's enough make make someone forget you.
Will she forget?
Will she realise i'm the one she's looking for?

It's just the begining of the 2 months.
It's so hard not to contact her.
Continue my nua life.
Drink, Drank, Drunk.
Sing, Sang, Sung.

I met friends.
After i reach home, i met EMO.
EMO isn't friendly.
I was drunk.
Halfway through my sleep,
Finally chiong to threw up.
Even till now I'm having butterflies in my stomach.

Feeling very xin ku.
Why must such a thing happen?
Where is the happiness that we promised each other?

:'(

She says.

i asked her if we can still contact and meet up like as usual?
she answered yes, why not?

i asked her if we can still go out as in 2 person like as usual?
she answered yes, why not?

i told her that even after breakup i would still continue to woo her.
she answered ok, fine with her.

Is she really ok with everything or is she just trying to make me feel better?
Some people say she's trying to make me feel better whilst some say let natural take it's course.

i did msg her as usual.
she replied.
i did ask her out as usual.
we meet up.

the only difference is we can no longer hold each other's hands.
the only difference is we can no longer hug each other tightly.
the only difference is we can no longer kiss each other gently.

i'm feeling so unhappy.
i'm feeling so weird.
i'm feeling so empty in my heart...

Fear.

This morning when i woke up,
I saw the sky was dark.
I saw the whole house was dark.
I went around searching for people,
But no one was at home.

My heart sank.
I panic.
I open all my windows,
I on all my lights.
It was still dark.
I felt scared.
Never in my life i felt such fear.

It was the 3rd day already
Yet i can't even get over anything.
I was as if trapped in my own house.
I do not know what i can do to stop thinking.
I shivered.
I was scared.

I felt cold breeze blowing on me.
It was as if telling me that I'm hopeless.
I can no longer feel the warm of the sun.
I can no longer see what is ahead of me.
I was scared.

There was no longer someone who stand by me.
There was no longer someone who knows me
There was nobody.
I'm all alone when you left.
I am scared, really scared.

Baby,
Is that so difficult to find back our feelings?
If only time could turn back...

Where is the happiness?

You said you will be happy after breaking up.
But after the breakup,
I never see your happiness.
I never feel your happiness.
I only saw a shag man.
I only feel a sad man.

I used to find your hair on my bed.
No matter how many times i clean,
I will still find your hair.
But today, I can no longer find your hair on my bed.
the long, curvy hair.
I miss the smell of your hair.
I miss the feeling of staring into the each other's eyes.

Are you really happy after the breakup?
I can feel you are not truely happy about breaking.
So Baby,
Come back to me...

Tell me you will come back... :'(

Low.

Tomorrow is Monday.
Everyone have started their brand new week/semester.
Some go school
Some go work
Some go NS
I am left all alone,
Be it physically and mentally.

After she have left, i am left with nothing.
Seriously nothing.
It's just left with me, myself and I during weekdays.
How am I going to go through this period of time?
I felt the pain.

Memories of past events vividly flooding in my mind.
It felt as if every happy moment just happened ytd.
When you're gone,
There's no one left to create happy moments with me.
There's no one left to share the happy moments with me

I felt that my room was particularity dark.
But it wasn't when we were in my room.
We even felt that it was too bright.
But now, it became so dark.
Why?

How I wish time can turn back and stop the most loving point.
How i wish i could hold her hands once more.
How I wish i could hug her once more.
How I wish i could kiss her once more.
Can i?

I swollowed my saliva down.
Two rows of tears rolled down my cheeks uncontrollably.
I felt the bitterness of losing you.
I realised that I can't make it without you.

Baby,
Come back to me, will you?
I need you badly...
:'(

In loving memory.

I finally let go of my hands.
She left eventually.

I thought i would be able to take it.
I thought i would be able to face the world with a wide smile.
I thought i would be able to carry on with my life as usual.
I couldn't.

I buried myself in the virtual world of gaming.
I make myself to sleep even i do not feel like.
I deceived myself that everything is fine and great.
I make myself to go out with ppl.
I just want to be occupied and stop thinking.

I pretended that she was still with me.
But the cruel truth still stab me on my back.
When I open my wallet to buy things but i saw our pics, i realised that she's gone.
When I pick up my house phone to call but i realised that she's no longer there to take my call.
When I use my handphone to msg but i realised that she's no longer available to see my msgs.
When I wanted to ask somebody out but i realised that she's no longer by my side.

Whenever
I felt that my eye lids are too weak to support the tears inside.
I felt that my throat is too dry to swollow any saliva.
I felt that my heart is too weak to face reality.
I was never a moment happy ever since breakup.

I felt terrible
I was in pain, prolong pain..... :'(